I have a friend who is very much like me in this respect. We were discussing this attitude of moving past “bad times” and on to better ones the other day, and she said it is was getting harder for her to “turn the page.” She is quite a bit younger than I am and it saddened me that this is happening to her so soon. Losing the ability to put bad things behind you and move on to better times is a “happiness” thing. You can look forward to new beginnings, new friends, and new times. Anticipation fuels you when you “turn the page” to a new one.
I have reached a time where it is harder to look forward to a new life. Can this be what happens when you age? I have no close family, i.e., no children, grandchildren, etc. to live through and occupy my thoughts. My friends are aging also and we cannot traverse the miles to see each other very often. Looking forward is very hard when there is no “new page” visible in your future. What do we do when there is no “new page” for our lives? Is this why so many older people are depressed? Is this why I eat so much sugar – to get the high that life cannot give me?
I wish I knew how to fix this. I am going to try to retrieve that old optimism that has fueled me thus far. I just have to figure out what will pull me forward to a new page and a new life. Wish me luck. If I find it, I will share it so others can benefit from “turning the page,” too.