I know I am doing better because I am restless. Status quo for the last few months was OK. Now, I am not happy with it. The old yearning for more has come back.
I cannot sit and watch TV all day any more no matter how good the programs are. I must get out. I need to participate in all the events and groups that I had worked so hard on joining. I need that “fun” calendar set up again. I need to do “the to do list” again.
I am going out to shop and look at bit more. I am so tired of my décor in my apartment. I want to change it into “my personality” not the personality of all the people who formerly owned the furniture I use. I have some great stuff in that “mirage” I call storage. I doubt if I will ever get to move it here, but I do plan on getting all the way up to northeast North Carolina coast just south of Elizabeth City and donating it to charity. I will then have over $100 more per month to use for furnishings here in Pensacola, after I pay off the trip. That will take a few months. But in the long run it will be worth it.
I also want to start going back to the beach here. It is nice to go there even if cold and rainy. On those days, it is so peaceful – just you, the waves, and the seabirds.
So, I feel like I used to on New Years Day when I made out my lists of things I wanted to accomplish in the new year. I am starting a little late, but I am ready to plan this new year.