But right now my "ebb is low." Even though I am on the Gulf coast now, I still have the blues. I have read that we have high and low points in the passing of one year, usually about 6 months apart. Mine seem to happen this time every year, especially in September, and usually right before Spring arrives.
I drove to the Pensacola docks yesterday and sat in the sun and watched people - a great pastime. No sign of Autumn anywhere. The sun and water were the same great colors and the people I saw were having a wonderful "summer" fun fishing, playing in the fountain, taking pictures of sailboats on the bay and all manner of fun things. My spirits lifted a bit, but bottomed out by the time I got home.
I know this will pass, as will this Autumn of my life. I believe that Autumn really signifies the ending of life, and I have to admit that I am in the Autumn of mine. I am hopeful that "my colors" will brighten and I will return to my usual optimistic self soon.
So this must be one of those low points I have every year, no matter where I live. It is a passing of time and life. The encouraging thing that I remember each year when Autumn arrives is that Halloween (fun time for the kids in us) and Thanksgiving will arrive shortly and all will return to normal.
I adore the Christmas season and I just need to get there. AND I will. This "mood" or depression that I get every year will pass, as it always does. That is the great thing about this "low ebb" I have; it does pass and stays away for about 6 months.
I will be counting the days until Halloween.