Yesterday, I ran away for two hours and it was so rejuvenating. I drove over the bridge away from Pensacola to my past. I went all the way to the end of Gulf Breeze and visited my old house.
It has been over 15 years since I moved and the house looks pretty good. It is for sale, but way out of my reach at $299,000+. But it was great to see the yard since I created it from a new lot all those years ago. All of the shrubs that I lovingly searched for and planted have grown into huge bushes. The palms are still there, and, as I said, the house looks great.
The interesting thing about the trip down memory lane is that it did not make me sad. It helped me to remember a more positive Peggy and a happier time. I found that person I used to be - before illness and defeat. I cannot be that person again, but I can model a new version.
On the way back I "toured" Pensacola by going a more beautiful way home (not the interstate) and revisited several things. I also, stopped at a new Publix grocery store (that was not there 15 years ago), and bought a coffee cake and some of their pimento cheese spread.
So the new revitalized life has begun. I am looking for ways to decorate my apartment to make it more like me and less like the people whose furniture I got when moving here. It is sick of me, but I call it the dead woman's furniture (since she died here shortly after we all moved in.) It is definitely not my taste, but I am redoing it to make it work.
I let my storage unit in NC go and with it all of the furniture, etc. of my former life. I requested the box of photos, but I have not received them. I told them to sell it or take what they wanted it. So now I have that money from that unit to spend on making my apartment reflect my new life.
I feel much like did all those years ago when I "let my husband" go. He made me sick and when he was gone I was well, if not the same physically. But that's a part of the past that I also have let go.
Now for the future! Let it come.
It has been over 15 years since I moved and the house looks pretty good. It is for sale, but way out of my reach at $299,000+. But it was great to see the yard since I created it from a new lot all those years ago. All of the shrubs that I lovingly searched for and planted have grown into huge bushes. The palms are still there, and, as I said, the house looks great.
The interesting thing about the trip down memory lane is that it did not make me sad. It helped me to remember a more positive Peggy and a happier time. I found that person I used to be - before illness and defeat. I cannot be that person again, but I can model a new version.
On the way back I "toured" Pensacola by going a more beautiful way home (not the interstate) and revisited several things. I also, stopped at a new Publix grocery store (that was not there 15 years ago), and bought a coffee cake and some of their pimento cheese spread.
So the new revitalized life has begun. I am looking for ways to decorate my apartment to make it more like me and less like the people whose furniture I got when moving here. It is sick of me, but I call it the dead woman's furniture (since she died here shortly after we all moved in.) It is definitely not my taste, but I am redoing it to make it work.
I let my storage unit in NC go and with it all of the furniture, etc. of my former life. I requested the box of photos, but I have not received them. I told them to sell it or take what they wanted it. So now I have that money from that unit to spend on making my apartment reflect my new life.
I feel much like did all those years ago when I "let my husband" go. He made me sick and when he was gone I was well, if not the same physically. But that's a part of the past that I also have let go.
Now for the future! Let it come.
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