Alone, But OK

It is fun to look back the at the guys I dated when in high school. We are in our 70’s and have had totally different paths. Thanks to Facebook I can find them now. One is still involved in music (knew him in band) but also does all kinds of Audio Visual work. Another one is married to a good friend of mine; she was in the band, too. One had 6 kids, the last time I checked. (Many thought I would marry him. I am kind of glad I didn’t.) I dated a boy from church, who has become very prominent in ministries. Again, I would not be a good fit. I guess I have changed quite a bit since I was in high school.
I did marry but failed at that. So, I gave up men for a while.  I moved around a lot to different states, met a lot of men, but would not go out with them more than three times. They always asked why. I had to tell that they would eventually want to marry me, and I did not want to hurt them when I said NO.
These guys, nice as they are would not want me now. I am so independent and non-traditional, I do not think I would fit in. Recently I met the perfect man, but I was afraid he was getting too serious, so I told him that I was not ready. And since he had recently lost his wife I was afraid he was looking for a replacement   As I said above, marriage and I have not worked in the past. He found someone else and he seems very happy.
 I am alone now with the traditional little dog, but not lonely. I guess that is a good thing.
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