I did marry but failed at that. So, I gave up men for a while. I moved around a lot to different states, met a lot of men, but would not go out with them more than three times. They always asked why. I had to tell that they would eventually want to marry me, and I did not want to hurt them when I said NO.
These guys, nice as they are would not want me now. I am so independent and non-traditional, I do not think I would fit in. Recently I met the perfect man, but I was afraid he was getting too serious, so I told him that I was not ready. And since he had recently lost his wife I was afraid he was looking for a replacement As I said above, marriage and I have not worked in the past. He found someone else and he seems very happy.
I am alone now with the traditional little dog, but not lonely. I guess that is a good thing.